When you feel like kicking yourself in the ass!

04 Oct 2014, Dhaka, Bangladesh, Bengal --- Slum child enjoying color play on the ocassion of last day of Durga Puja. Bangladeshi Hindu devotees put vermillion and color on each other's faces as they dance on the final day of the Durga Puja Festival in Dhaka on October 4 2014. The five-day Durga Puja festival commemorates the slaying of a demon king Mahishasur by goddess Durga, marking the triumph of good over evil. (Photo by Zakir Hossain Chowdhury/NurPhoto) --- Image by © Zakir Hossain Chowdhury/NurPhoto/Corbis

I rarely, discuss my college education because to me, it’s bullshit and the rate of return on my investment was negative because  college don’t teach you how to make money. Hear me clearly, I learned some valuable and priceless shit going to college but not in the classrooms. We pay heavy prices when we lie to ourselves!

Their usefulness comes down to paying a heavy personal penalty for not listening to my dawn self and trying to please my mother and family. I allowed myself to engage in them Respectability Politics, and the unyielding dis-ease of The Need to Please when I knew better!

Just cuz folks is grown and you a child don’t mean they know what your destiny is. The shit we do to be loved and accepted can destroy dreams and take you off your path if you begin to believe that other people know what’s best for you!

I would just as well use my degrees to wipe my own ass if the paper was as soft as Charmin. I use language and my own self expression to speak to peoples’ hearts and to self-correct. I ain’t better than nobody and certainly aint inferior to nobody!

Everyday all day we receive messages in lightening speed, telling us,” you ain’t shit, you’re not enough, you’re not good enough, you too loud, you too strong!”, it goes on and on……… Truth be told, many and most of us heard these messages from our caregivers/family members/friends add technology as the Reinforcer and what you get is a recipe for complete devastation to the human spirit.

The shit don’t stop and not that I don’t get insecure and not that I don’t get scared sometimes but what I  know 4sho, is that the Universal GOD, whatever name that you prefer to call on, created nothing the same. With, all the people in the world each person has  unique finger prints only to themselves.

There is no leaf on the branch of a tree the same as any other on that same tree so why would I continue or start to compare myself against what anyone else has, does or says.

The streets got it right, “Mind your own business and you can live longer!”


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